Luminescent Shards of happiness

The last few weeks have been overpowering for me especially on the emotional front with the most important week of my stay at hel(L) approaching fast, People look at the placements as the ultimate leveler, no one cares what your CG is or what committee you worked for, but if you have made it into the slot 1 biggies , you have proved your mettle. But as the penultimate week seems to approach the days seem to get shorter and shorter leaving me gasping for time, not that there is a lot of work to do, but just this truck load of tangled thoughts that I need to sort out before I leap. I felt like I’m in this large pool of spaghetti and I need to make something understandable out of this.

Friends and everyone around try to help only realize that they are in no better place than me , bearing the load of the same mind crippling thoughts. The paradox here is the more you think and try to sort things out the more entangled you find yourselves. And as always I look to sleep as my best solution provider (clearing my thoughts ……. NAP ATTACK in Garfield style), but lately this potent formula has seemed to loose it effectiveness.

I wonder if you guys have ever been in a drag race, once the light goes off and you put your foot down, there is no turning back, suddenly the under a minute race seems like it would last like until eternity, the sudden head rush gives you a high incomparable to anything in the world, and after a few seconds its over and life seems to move in slow motion. Well right now I feel I have been strapped to an rocket and the world just seems like a streak out of the corner of my eye. The thoughts that once revitalized mind and soul are now like this huge burden I have to carry with me for the next 45 days.

So with sleep ruled out , I started looking for alternatives and as always I looked upon the great feline Garfield for answers, so the next answer that came out was lasagna. The weather was pleasant with a mild breeze blowing and the faint rumble amongst the clouds. I got on my bike and took off. As I was half way through a wonderful thing happened , it started to rain. Just me alone on my bike on this seemingly empty stretch of road engulfed by these little drops of happiness, which looked like these luminescent shards of light, in front on of the headlamp. Only then did I realize the amount of happiness you can get from smaller things in life like rain on a clear night, go a long way. Every drop of rain that fell upon my face seemed to take away the worries that were haunting me. Every drop made its presence felt and before I realized it I was bearing a smile from one ear to the other ear J .

I realized I was making too big a deal out of this whole placement thing. I thought to myself ” Placements will happen no matter what and I will give it nothing but my best shot; But the worry of placements will surely not keep me from enjoying my last few days at the place I love the most, hel(L) ! . Jobs will change but the memories of this place will surpass time ; Lets make the most of what’s left ! “. The rain never left and accompanied me on my way back, though a little chilly my mind was clear and I had a dreamless sleep that night. the rain stopped the same night but the smile continued into the next day.

I end this post here with a very good song from the “god of reggae” Bob Marley ….. the redemption song

Old pirates, yes, they rob i;
Sold I to the merchant ships,
Minutes after they took i
From the bottomless pit.
But my hand was made strong
By the and of the almighty.
We forward in this generation
Triumphantly.
Wont you help to sing
These songs of freedom? -
cause all I ever have:
Redemption songs;
Redemption songs.

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds.
Have no fear for atomic energy,
cause none of them can stop the time.
How long shall they kill our prophets,
While we stand aside and look? ooh!
Some say its just a part of it:
Weve got to fulfil de book.

Wont you help to sing
These songs of freedom? -
cause all I ever have:
Redemption songs;
Redemption songs;
Redemption songs.

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our mind.
Wo! have no fear for atomic energy,
cause none of them-a can-a stop-a the time.
How long shall they kill our prophets,
While we stand aside and look?
Yes, some say its just a part of it:
Weve got to fulfil de book.
Wont you help to sing
Dese songs of freedom? -
cause all I ever had:
Redemption songs -
All I ever had:
Redemption songs:
These songs of freedom,
Songs of freedom.