My Mind games

Why is it that one feels secluded and alone. I have been having this feeling for quiet sometime now, none of my friends seem to be my friends anymore. Life has suddenly become like a empty road in the moonlit sky, so cold so emotionless, there is no sight of a anyone around.... there i stand alone with no directions and no will, lost in space and time.
Those who I thought understood me turned out to be just friends of the moment putting up a show. Its now that i realize how lost and alone I'm with no-one to call a friend no shoulder to rest my arm on, I feel maybe I go wrong somewhere. People all around seem to be so artificial here at Lucknow, everyone thinks the whole thing is a race where they have to win at any cost. People here make friendships based on the academic records rather than trust. Every person here is trying hard to get a one up on the other, the term popularly referred to as RG (relative grading) is the root cause here, If you want to get a better score you have to make sure that the other don't have to perform as good as you do, See!! that's where the problem lies. People here see other not as batch mates but weigh them on the basis of their CG (Cumulative Grade)and how they can improve your CG..
Sometimes i can't help comparing the students here to a group of vulture ready to tear at the sight of blood even if that animal might be a vulture of the same group. This competition they say turns us into gr8 managers (considering the pyramidal structure of every organization)but i think in the process of making us among the best managers of the country they make us forget the basic rules of friendship " Being there and standing up for each other"
I know i sound this sounds pretty sarcastic and many of the readers may also consider me to a slouch or a fatte baaz, But Hey! thats what I feel and I say It out loud.